Tuesday, 11 September 2012

The post without a title

This is a difficult one to write, but then the ones where you give a little piece of yourself always are aren't they?

I am always keen to stamp out stigma, of any kind and I think it always helps to talk about things and get them out in the open.

It is time to practice what I preach.

Life is hard at the moment, I look back over my previous blog posts and see that the last time I was on antibiotics the exact same thing happened. I am slap bang in the middle of a serious low. I am not depressed, this is just a temporary state of sadness due to medication.

It is like the sun has gone in. where there was sunshine, there are dark clouds and sadness. I am lucky. I know that this is only a temporary feeling, a side effect from the antibiotics, and I cling onto that like a life raft, telling myself I WILL get through it and get through the other side.

Why am I telling you this? It isn't for sympathy. I don't want sympathy, I am telling you this because I think we need to share these things and how we feel. Too many people suffer in silence, alone, afraid to tell people how they feel. But WHY should people suffer in silence?

If you are depressed at the moment, TALK to someone, tell someone. be it your doctor, a friend, a loved one or even anonymously on this post if you wish.

Don't suffer in silence or in shame.

You are NOT alone.

Big Fashionista

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  1. Take care of yourself Sera. It's a good thing you recognise the cycle, whcih is a good step towards working through it however long it takes.

    We should all talk about things like this more. I've had a tough few months and it's a struggle to get the words out and even tougher when some people don't want to hear them.

    May I recommend hot chocolate and a good book for a short term fix?

    Meryl xx

    1. Just realised I'm an idiot and got my blogger's names mixed up - can I blame mummy brain. Have spent the last few days being extremely emotional over my daughter's first day at "big school"!!

  2. Speaking about how you feel is the first step towards a better you.
    I've grown up with depression in the family, and must admit everytime I feel down for a few days it does creep into my mind I might be going the same way and getting depressed. But knowing the signs and being willing to express how you feel helps a lot.
    I'm a massive supporter in stamping out stigma, and until we do many unfortunately will feel the pressure of 'putting on a brave face'

  3. I'm feeling down at the moment, not depressed. I blame a month of working nights with 2 shifts on 2 shifts off. This has made my body clock non existent and most of the time I don't even know what day it is. Eating is erratic as well.
    I only have 2 more nights to go then I have 12 days off, I honestly cannot wait!
    I am losing my temper all over the place and my empathy has left, gone, buggered off... Not like me at all.

    I hate it.

  4. Sorry to hear you're feeling low babe. I applaud you, even though you're feeling low, your first thought is 'stamp out stigma' and think of helping others.
    I completely agree the best thing to do when feeling low or depressed, is talk to others. That old saying 'a problem shared, is a problems halved' is so true.
    I've often kept things to myself for days / weeks on end, feeling shitter and shitter as the days go by. Then as soon as I've talked about it to my BF, I feel just that bit better.
    The reason I keep it in sometimes though, is because I'm worried about scaring my BF at how low I'm actually feeling sometimes. Which is actually the exact reason why I should be telling him!!

  5. Hey Gorgeous. Just want to let you know that it is going to be ok eventually. I want you to know this because this is something that I wish those closest to me would tell me when I go into my "hole". So yeah. You know it will be, just as soon as the pesky meds are done, and I can't want for you to get back on the wagon (instead of hiding in the grass). Its going to be ok, ok? *hugs*

    1. I applaud you for talking about depression Kellie.
      I never really feel brave enough to tell people how I truly feel. I usually slap on a smile and act like life is brilliant, but truth be told I've been on medication since I was 15, attended numerous councilling sessions and different cbt sessions which never help. I can go a few weeks with feeling the happiest ever then I feel it slowly creeping up like a dark cloud. I always think my life could be better then I feel bad for thinking that as I have a loving husband and two amazing babies.
      Well done Kellie for showing us its ok to talk about depression because a lot more people have it than we think x

  6. I think that depression is one of the hardest things to talk about/admit to/mention, and I applaud you for posting about it. Whether it be medication induced or medication required it is tough, and it is often only when one comes out of it can one look back and recognise how unwell one was. Thinking of you lovey xxx

  7. Too often do we brush over talking about problems like this. Thanks for sharing and I hope you feel better soon xx

  8. Chin up beautiful girl x

  9. Sending you lots of love. I had my first ever really bad reaction to antibiotics this year, for a period of about 6-8 weeks, and at times I really wanted/thought I was going to die. Along with palpitations, fainting, sickness, weight gain, weight loss. And it took me a long time to realise it was all because of the antibiotics, I just thought I was going mad and didn't know what was happening to me! Good on you for speaking out about it to help others, I really hope you're on the mend soon. Thinking of you. xx


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