Thursday, 17 April 2014

Kneesy Does It



I am 38 years old, and until recently I was pleased with the fact that I didn't really feel 38. I always felt a lot younger, I'm not one for a huge amount of exercise, (I'm so lazy, even my mascara doesn't run) but I'm active and I keep busy. 

And then my body decided to rebel a bit, my knees have decided to DEGENERATE.



Degenerate? This is not in my vocabulary, I want to make like Dr Who and REGENERATE, not slowly fall apart like an old car (I still have nice bumpers though) until I'm so rusty that I am good for nothing but the scrap heap. My knee has decided that it is going to rebel, I have torn cartilage in my knee, hyperextension and a lot of degeneration. 

Shit, that doesn't sound great to me at all. In fact, it sounds to me like my body is starting to get old, and I don't like it. I feel let down a bit by my body, growing old was not part of the plan. 

Now the only thing I actually want to do is run, you know, the one thing that I actually never wanted to do when I could do it, but the minute you are told that you shouldn't do something, it's all you want to do. (Disclaimer, I cannot run, I run like Phoebe from Friends and deep down I know this already, plus my boobs are so big there is not a sports bra in the world that can give me enough support, not even The Samaritans can support these puppies) so I am sulking a bit today, and feeling cheated out of my London Marathon medal that I will never have. My knee hurts, my PRIDE hurts and I am feeling as if old age, that was so far around the corner it was in a different post code is now catching up with me fast (well it isn't as if I can outrun it, is it?) 


I know I will get over feeling this way, but today I'm feeling quite bleurgh over the whole situation. 

How do you know you are getting old? 

Am I being unnessarily dramatic over the whole situation? Or was there a point where you too suddenly felt, "oh no, the ageing process has begun" 

Let me know.


Big Fashionista x x 
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5 comments

  1. I agree with the part about the bumpers. I have felt as though a few parts of me are starting to show their age (I'm only 2 years behind you, after all). Fortunately I still have it where it counts.

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  2. What makes me feel old is that realisation that there are things that I will probably never do in life - y'know, the kind of realisations that we never even thought about when we were young(er). I'll probably never drive a car (I'm cool with that!), I'll probably never go to Australia or have a mortgage (probably won't ever be able to afford them!), I'll never be a supermodel (not sure that I really wanted that in the first place, but you know!), I'll never experience that absolute excitement of knowing that I have the whole of my life ahead of me and I can do whatever I want with it - I mean, yeah I know that people say "you're never too old", but in a way, I think you are too old for some things!

    Getting old(er) sucks!

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  3. I feel old every time I lose my breath after walking for 2 mins..lol

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  4. I felt old a couple of weeks ago on my birthday night out (40th!) and could only dance to two songs in a row before my legs felt like they were dragging through concrete. Not good. So I've jumped upon the wellness train and am putting healthy oils, seeds and shitloads of fruit and veg down my gullet in the hope I feel less......ancient. Meh.

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  5. im 21, but I feel a awful lot older than that! I have joint problems, most I was born with, I can limb around and feel more like 40 than 21! i know i should enjoy being younger... but part of me wants to be older so i can justify feeling so old!

    Catherine x

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